Do you sometimes feel confused about whether a person is lying?
Do you find yourself in a position where you feel severely conflicted, like you’re feeling something about a person but they’re claiming to be someone else?
Some people can constantly make us feel like we’ve got to pick a side — are they being true or are they lying, do they care or do they not, do they like us or do they not, do they love us or do they not, would they fulfil their promise or would they break it again.
And if we’re not aware, if we’re blindsided by our feelings towards them, then we could end up seeing only what they want us to see — the options that they decide for us.
When someone puts mismatching words and actions on to my plate, it’s not my place to play a detective and find whether they’re being true or lying. I also DON’T HAVE TO CHOOSE a side.
What’s that, Aikta? I don’t? But what do I dooo then? What’s the wayy of knowinggg??? I WANT AN ANSWER!!!
Do you want to know the answer so you could forget again, or do you WANT to know the answer?
Come here, Potato, and I won’t say, “Don’t tell anyone,” go, tell everyone.
The answer is
— there’s NO WAY OF KNOWING!
There’s no way of knowing unless you trade your sanity for the knowledge.
But there is a way and it absolutely is your place to decide whether or not you must hang on, whether or not you must keep giving yourself over to them, whether or not you stay stuck in confusions until arrive the proofs of their true colours.
And I say, I better be off to somewhere else than to be on a nowhere-land of confusion.
My energy is valuable, and I’d rather be spending it with something or someone who adds to it, than to indulge in somebody’s game of one truth and eleventy lies.
Got it? Good. Now go, and take crunchy care, will you?